uggg Jan 23 2010

ok so being unemployed sucks. it has been about a week now and i'm struggling just thinking about how hard it is to get ahead in life.

Wednesday 1-20-10

OK so I still have no idea what I'm doing on here yet.. and bear with me people i have the worst grammar and I'm sure this will be one run-on sentence. It is my third day being unemployed and I have been unemployed before but for some reason it is different this time. I am a massage therapist and was let go for not being able to come in on my scheduled day off. Total gift from God. I hated it there. Massage was something I loved doing and you know when all the enjoyment just gets sucked out of something you used to love doing because now you have to do it. Well, that's what happened. I look at massage as a spiritual tool and I have lost that. I have trouble feeling God lately, and no I am not a bible or Jesus thump er..not that there is anything wrong with that. I just try to put my life in something bigger than me because otherwise I will go CRAAZZZZYYYY. So now I am currently job searching but it got me thinking why not try to open my own business. Something I believe in, something that will help others. My dream used to be wanting to be a money hungry power business woman and be able to " run shit". yeah i know... its funny though how life will throw certain curve balls your way and it makes you start thinking totally different. Want I think I want is not really what I want. I want something real. Does anybody know what I mean by that?